Today I wrote the answer to the 10 000th ticket since the start of the use of our ticket system. I think this is over 4 years time, so its not that much but yay still. See I am able to find stuff from my work that I can celebrate!
But now back to work!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Laundry and stuff
Yesterday I did some laundry for my brother. Still some clothes that smell a bit funny from the fire. I don't mind doing it. At least it is something else to do than sit in front of computer. Now that I have been able to wake up before noon (thanks to a friend), I have been able to do more stuff in the evening.
I even washed two of my carpets yesterday. I have also joined a gym. This is purely to get me out of home once in a while. I really nee to get a life, where I go places. Well having said that, next two months I don't have a free weekend at all. I have booked them all. I will go see my granny and do some baking there, will see a friend of mine and do some baking there, will attend my nieces b-days (week apart) and do some baking for them and I will also go see my other friends new home (no baking there).
Now, I am not a good baker or cook. I just don't have any bias towards anything new to do. This is why I am usually asked to help on baking. I have done wheat free stuff as well as sugar free stuff. Sometimes the bakings work out to be great and sometimes they suck. Ce la vie.
There is not much point to this post. :) Just wanted to post something so that you'll have something to read about.
Oh, yeah almost forgot to mention. Travel bug has been biting me really hard and I have started to plan my travels. I would love to go visit Pensacola again and see San Fransisco (nothing to do with the fact, that I am watching Charmed at the moment). I would also like to see Vancouver. I am not sure if I can combine these into one trip. At least I can always dream about traveling. The airplanes, the hotels, the atmosphere :))
I even washed two of my carpets yesterday. I have also joined a gym. This is purely to get me out of home once in a while. I really nee to get a life, where I go places. Well having said that, next two months I don't have a free weekend at all. I have booked them all. I will go see my granny and do some baking there, will see a friend of mine and do some baking there, will attend my nieces b-days (week apart) and do some baking for them and I will also go see my other friends new home (no baking there).
Now, I am not a good baker or cook. I just don't have any bias towards anything new to do. This is why I am usually asked to help on baking. I have done wheat free stuff as well as sugar free stuff. Sometimes the bakings work out to be great and sometimes they suck. Ce la vie.
There is not much point to this post. :) Just wanted to post something so that you'll have something to read about.
Oh, yeah almost forgot to mention. Travel bug has been biting me really hard and I have started to plan my travels. I would love to go visit Pensacola again and see San Fransisco (nothing to do with the fact, that I am watching Charmed at the moment). I would also like to see Vancouver. I am not sure if I can combine these into one trip. At least I can always dream about traveling. The airplanes, the hotels, the atmosphere :))
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Up coming weekend
This weekend I am going to go see my friends in Tampere. One of them has birthday party so it is easy to see all my friends at the same time. I already know what I am going to get her. It is a gift card, because that is what she wants :) She has planned to to say everybody that if they want to bring something they should bring a small gift card from certain store. So she can then buy what she wants from there. It is quite expensive store, but she has many friends. If 5 of her friends give her the gift card, I am sure she will be able to find something nice.
If we all give, she will be able to find something extra nice. Well I know what she wants, and she said she would pay the rest herself as she really wants it. It is just too expensive to ask anyone to give as present. (It is not her 30th b-day yet.)
So my agenda for this week is to go to the town and get that gift card before I go there. That's all I need to do, what I have to do is totally different. I think I might have to start cleaning today after work. I need to get rid of an old carpet, do some laundry for my brother, need to hoover as well. Also at one point I think I need to do some work in my bedroom. The walls are hideous... Well I was supposed to do that a year ago, so I don't think that one more week matters.
If we all give, she will be able to find something extra nice. Well I know what she wants, and she said she would pay the rest herself as she really wants it. It is just too expensive to ask anyone to give as present. (It is not her 30th b-day yet.)
So my agenda for this week is to go to the town and get that gift card before I go there. That's all I need to do, what I have to do is totally different. I think I might have to start cleaning today after work. I need to get rid of an old carpet, do some laundry for my brother, need to hoover as well. Also at one point I think I need to do some work in my bedroom. The walls are hideous... Well I was supposed to do that a year ago, so I don't think that one more week matters.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
All work and no play makes me a dull girl!
I have almost 1000 tickets this month. I have done over 750 tickets since last Friday. I have done over 7,5 hour days (my work day is 7,5 hours). Friday I did 11 hours (well 12, but I had 1 hour lunch break after 7 hours of work)...
I did have a baking Sunday, but damn I wish it was weekend already. Thank god I will have full vacation time this year. I know I probably won't enjoy it because I will have to do the work after I return from vacation. Really not a happy camper at the moment. I have done 6 hours of work today, so I think I will keep a little break now. Will do the rest tonight with the overtime.
Oh, and I need to remember to start looking for another job. I forgot to do it last week and in the week before that. But this week I will do it! If I remember...
I did have a baking Sunday, but damn I wish it was weekend already. Thank god I will have full vacation time this year. I know I probably won't enjoy it because I will have to do the work after I return from vacation. Really not a happy camper at the moment. I have done 6 hours of work today, so I think I will keep a little break now. Will do the rest tonight with the overtime.
Oh, and I need to remember to start looking for another job. I forgot to do it last week and in the week before that. But this week I will do it! If I remember...
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Day is getting longer
The day is getting longer and longer by each passing day. It is so good to see the light during the day, and not just the darkness. I think I am more suited for living in the south then in north. I have spent few years in warm places so I know that too much heat is not good.
This reminds me that I have planned to go on a trip with my sis during the summer. Yesterday I asked our other friend to come over as well. They both turn 30 this year, so it would be like a b-day trip for both of them. We will need to see how we can match our time tables. It would be the cheapest to take a last minute trip, but my sister will need some time to organize her stuff. Also it is really expensive to come here in short notice.
Totally lost the idea what I was about to write here. That's what the sun does to you. :))
This reminds me that I have planned to go on a trip with my sis during the summer. Yesterday I asked our other friend to come over as well. They both turn 30 this year, so it would be like a b-day trip for both of them. We will need to see how we can match our time tables. It would be the cheapest to take a last minute trip, but my sister will need some time to organize her stuff. Also it is really expensive to come here in short notice.
Totally lost the idea what I was about to write here. That's what the sun does to you. :))
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
The last entry about dreams
You might remember that I mentioned a while back that I was helping my brother by babysitting while they renovate their new home. This meant that after I had done full day of work I jumped into a bus and watched my niece and nephew for 5 hours and on weekends 10-12 hours. This routine was up for almost four weeks. I did have a weekend off and also one Friday so it was not nonstop. Now don't get me wrong I was happy to help, so I am not complaining but you just will need to understand the circumstances.
So every bus ride that I had, I had my phone/music player blasting music into my ears. Kind of zoned off, just keeping in my mind that when I see the traffic lights, I need to get off the bus. Usually I let my mind go where ever it wanted to go, kind of day dreaming one might say. This theme rose up:
There was a fire in my brothers new home. I could see the flames, but they were kind of added later. I just saw the fire place and its surroundings flame up. (I had never been there or seen pics, but I had been described what it looks like. I just new that it was my brothers place, even though I didn't see any markers of this.)
I also was in my brothers old kitchen which had changed a bit. There was a smaller table with long chair (many people could sit on it... don't know how to described it) and at the table there was my sister-in-law's dad sitting there. I remember telling him that he is dead (he really is) and that this is not real. Even though he didn't say much I knew that someone was dead. Then I closed my eyes and suddenly was back at their old kitchen but it was the same (no changes). I flickered through few "realities" in which the life was mostly similar but a bit different. I remember that I was trying to find back to the real "reality". My marker for that was that he was dead and she was still alive.
After my brother moved into their new home I watched the kids over there. This time couple of times the kids had gone to bed, I noticed that I was imagining what the place would look like if it was burned. I remember walking past the fire place and just thinking how black everything would look like. In my dreams the same theme continued:
I could see the fire much more vividly, but still it was kind of added later effect. I didn't see anyone get hurt, I actually didn't see anyone but only the room where the fireplace was.
In my dreams I talked to him more. He said that I should warn about the fire, and he was frustrated that I didn't do anything. (While day dreaming, I always said "this is just my imagination".) One time when I was flipping through the worlds I stopped at one world where I saw her. I started to talk to her telling how glad I was to be at home again. Then I noticed him at the table again. I then said to him, that "I got the wrong world again". He replied to me that I got the right one, that I am the only one that could see him. She was just watching me and wanted to know who I was talking to. I just didn't want to get involved.
She is the one that was dead in some of my dreams. He wanted me to warn her.
These dreams started about the same time as I started babysitting. I would assume that this is partly why I saw him. The nature of my dreams can be explained by my taste in movies and series. I love scifi, horror and fantasy genres. One thing that can't be explained is the fire. I usually do not dream of fire, and these dreams really didn't make me feel very well. All I know is that the dreams stopped after there was a fire in my brother's new home. All the walls were black (saw pics), the whole house didn't burn down. Most of the damages were in one part of the house. She did return to the burning building to get her mobile phone (learned this later).
Lets just say that I have been a bit freaked out by this. To top it all, at the moment their kitchen table is very similar to the one in my dreams. I never said anything about this to them before the fire. I thought I would say something after the fire, but how do you tell someone that you have just been seeing nightmares of their house burning. First they had the stress of moving and renovating, then the stress of loosing everything, and now the stress of building it back. I do not want to stress them more. Also I do not want that the men in white jackets come and get me.
Now this is it. After this I will continue posting stuff of no meaning.
So every bus ride that I had, I had my phone/music player blasting music into my ears. Kind of zoned off, just keeping in my mind that when I see the traffic lights, I need to get off the bus. Usually I let my mind go where ever it wanted to go, kind of day dreaming one might say. This theme rose up:
There was a fire in my brothers new home. I could see the flames, but they were kind of added later. I just saw the fire place and its surroundings flame up. (I had never been there or seen pics, but I had been described what it looks like. I just new that it was my brothers place, even though I didn't see any markers of this.)
I also was in my brothers old kitchen which had changed a bit. There was a smaller table with long chair (many people could sit on it... don't know how to described it) and at the table there was my sister-in-law's dad sitting there. I remember telling him that he is dead (he really is) and that this is not real. Even though he didn't say much I knew that someone was dead. Then I closed my eyes and suddenly was back at their old kitchen but it was the same (no changes). I flickered through few "realities" in which the life was mostly similar but a bit different. I remember that I was trying to find back to the real "reality". My marker for that was that he was dead and she was still alive.
After my brother moved into their new home I watched the kids over there. This time couple of times the kids had gone to bed, I noticed that I was imagining what the place would look like if it was burned. I remember walking past the fire place and just thinking how black everything would look like. In my dreams the same theme continued:
I could see the fire much more vividly, but still it was kind of added later effect. I didn't see anyone get hurt, I actually didn't see anyone but only the room where the fireplace was.
In my dreams I talked to him more. He said that I should warn about the fire, and he was frustrated that I didn't do anything. (While day dreaming, I always said "this is just my imagination".) One time when I was flipping through the worlds I stopped at one world where I saw her. I started to talk to her telling how glad I was to be at home again. Then I noticed him at the table again. I then said to him, that "I got the wrong world again". He replied to me that I got the right one, that I am the only one that could see him. She was just watching me and wanted to know who I was talking to. I just didn't want to get involved.
She is the one that was dead in some of my dreams. He wanted me to warn her.
These dreams started about the same time as I started babysitting. I would assume that this is partly why I saw him. The nature of my dreams can be explained by my taste in movies and series. I love scifi, horror and fantasy genres. One thing that can't be explained is the fire. I usually do not dream of fire, and these dreams really didn't make me feel very well. All I know is that the dreams stopped after there was a fire in my brother's new home. All the walls were black (saw pics), the whole house didn't burn down. Most of the damages were in one part of the house. She did return to the burning building to get her mobile phone (learned this later).
Lets just say that I have been a bit freaked out by this. To top it all, at the moment their kitchen table is very similar to the one in my dreams. I never said anything about this to them before the fire. I thought I would say something after the fire, but how do you tell someone that you have just been seeing nightmares of their house burning. First they had the stress of moving and renovating, then the stress of loosing everything, and now the stress of building it back. I do not want to stress them more. Also I do not want that the men in white jackets come and get me.
Now this is it. After this I will continue posting stuff of no meaning.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
More dreams
This one I had also when I was a teenager, not living at home anymore so I have been 16 or 17.
In my dream I was in a room with other people. The room was a living room. There was a long table, this old rocking chair (wider then normal ones) paintings in the wall... It was a wake (after funeral, you know) that I was attending. I remember sitting next to my aunt (from mothers side) and opposite me was a man I knew and a man I didn't know.
I got the feeling that I was dreaming and that this was a special dream. I stared at my food (soup) and listened while the two man were talking. They didn't know each other ether. They were talking about the area we were and about what good tourist would do to the area. It was so weird just listen to them. I noticed that there were other people in the room as well, and they were talking too. I didn't quite understand what they were talking, nor did I know whose funeral I was attending.
It was also very strange for me to be somewhere with this aunt. I hadn't seen her in many years and it was very unlikely for us to be in the same place. Especially as I didn't see other relatives there. Still I wasn't panicking, I just started at my food. After awhile I turned to my aunt and said that this is a dream.
The next day at school I told my friend about this dream and didn't think about it since. The reason why I am writing about this dream, is that the following summer my great uncle died. I went to his funeral, being the only one from our family (mom and sis weren't nearby) to take part. There weren't very many people there, my aunts and uncle and grandmother.
The place where the wake was held was my granny's old home (where she grew up). That was the place were this dream happened. The man I knew was a man one of my aunts was dating. The man I didn't knew was the priest. I had my aunt sitting next to me (not the one who was dating the guy). I almost lost it when the priest and aunt's boyfriend started to talk about the economy and tourists. I just held my head down and started my food. After a while I told my aunt that I had seen a dream about this few months earlier.
In my dream I was in a room with other people. The room was a living room. There was a long table, this old rocking chair (wider then normal ones) paintings in the wall... It was a wake (after funeral, you know) that I was attending. I remember sitting next to my aunt (from mothers side) and opposite me was a man I knew and a man I didn't know.
I got the feeling that I was dreaming and that this was a special dream. I stared at my food (soup) and listened while the two man were talking. They didn't know each other ether. They were talking about the area we were and about what good tourist would do to the area. It was so weird just listen to them. I noticed that there were other people in the room as well, and they were talking too. I didn't quite understand what they were talking, nor did I know whose funeral I was attending.
It was also very strange for me to be somewhere with this aunt. I hadn't seen her in many years and it was very unlikely for us to be in the same place. Especially as I didn't see other relatives there. Still I wasn't panicking, I just started at my food. After awhile I turned to my aunt and said that this is a dream.
The next day at school I told my friend about this dream and didn't think about it since. The reason why I am writing about this dream, is that the following summer my great uncle died. I went to his funeral, being the only one from our family (mom and sis weren't nearby) to take part. There weren't very many people there, my aunts and uncle and grandmother.
The place where the wake was held was my granny's old home (where she grew up). That was the place were this dream happened. The man I knew was a man one of my aunts was dating. The man I didn't knew was the priest. I had my aunt sitting next to me (not the one who was dating the guy). I almost lost it when the priest and aunt's boyfriend started to talk about the economy and tourists. I just held my head down and started my food. After a while I told my aunt that I had seen a dream about this few months earlier.
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
Repeting dreams
At one point of my life (teenager 14-15) I saw this dream over and over again. At that time the best parts of summer and xmas I (and my sis) spent at our grandparents farm which they had given to our aunt. The farm is the place where I lived as a small child and after that spent every single summer and xmas (-1).
In my dream it was summer. Once again time to go there and spent time with relatives. I was happy when the farm area started after the woods. It is the same feeling when you see something that you have missed and have not seen for a long time. The house is the same outside and inside. Outside the sun is shining and the colors are vivid. Inside it is a bit darker in the main house, but in the wing (where grandparents live) is sunny (there are windows in a row in the hall.
Few first times I spent time with grandparents, and they seem a bit dull/bored/colorless. Then I go talk to my aunt and the atmosphere changes. It is getting darker and darker. Still the sun is shining outside. The rooms do not seem to be clean and something scares me and I wake up. After few repeats I am not waken even though I am scared. I am talking to my aunt who seems normal at first but then seems to be covered with something black. She talks to me about not to be scared, but I feel how the black substance is trying to cover me too, which scares me even more.
Then she starts yelling and tries to hold me and cut my throat (to let the black substance in). I struggle and wake up.
When I then see this dream again I already know to fear something when I get in the house. I start to notice that everything inside is actually covered with the black substance and that my grandparents are too. Still I talk to them, and see that the dullness is caused by the black thing. I go and talk with my aunt and again she tries to make me join her. I feel how the black substance is taking over and I fight and try to get out.
The feeling that I have is that she is winning, but I will myself out. I think of being outside and am able to get out. I don't know how, but I feel the sun and am able to see everything around me. Now the house looks black/colorless (it is white and the wing is brown). I don't recognize the yard. I feel really sad when I wake up.
I have had these dreams few times since I was 15 (mostly when I was 14-15) . Haven't had them since I moved out from the farm, under the control of my aunt (moved in 17, moved our 18). I lived there for a year and it was enough. I believe that I already had started to notice the change in my aunt when I was teenager. When I moved there I wasn't a child anymore, so it was a good idea to try to convince me to be on her side (and not my mother's side). There were rumors that she had adopted me (no doubt she started them) and she wanted me not to go to school. At that point I as glad I had lived with my mom as the play she played was way too obvious to me. It hurt to see what she was doing, and it hurt even more when she realized that I wouldn't take her side.
About the black stuff... I remember talking with my sis, and she said at the time that I must have watched a horror movie or something. I do think that it is a valid point. My sub conscious made my aunt the bad guy and took something scary that I had saw to make its point.
Let me just say that it was not fun being in a car with her, while she was yelling, being furious with me and driving.
In my dream it was summer. Once again time to go there and spent time with relatives. I was happy when the farm area started after the woods. It is the same feeling when you see something that you have missed and have not seen for a long time. The house is the same outside and inside. Outside the sun is shining and the colors are vivid. Inside it is a bit darker in the main house, but in the wing (where grandparents live) is sunny (there are windows in a row in the hall.
Few first times I spent time with grandparents, and they seem a bit dull/bored/colorless. Then I go talk to my aunt and the atmosphere changes. It is getting darker and darker. Still the sun is shining outside. The rooms do not seem to be clean and something scares me and I wake up. After few repeats I am not waken even though I am scared. I am talking to my aunt who seems normal at first but then seems to be covered with something black. She talks to me about not to be scared, but I feel how the black substance is trying to cover me too, which scares me even more.
Then she starts yelling and tries to hold me and cut my throat (to let the black substance in). I struggle and wake up.
When I then see this dream again I already know to fear something when I get in the house. I start to notice that everything inside is actually covered with the black substance and that my grandparents are too. Still I talk to them, and see that the dullness is caused by the black thing. I go and talk with my aunt and again she tries to make me join her. I feel how the black substance is taking over and I fight and try to get out.
The feeling that I have is that she is winning, but I will myself out. I think of being outside and am able to get out. I don't know how, but I feel the sun and am able to see everything around me. Now the house looks black/colorless (it is white and the wing is brown). I don't recognize the yard. I feel really sad when I wake up.
I have had these dreams few times since I was 15 (mostly when I was 14-15) . Haven't had them since I moved out from the farm, under the control of my aunt (moved in 17, moved our 18). I lived there for a year and it was enough. I believe that I already had started to notice the change in my aunt when I was teenager. When I moved there I wasn't a child anymore, so it was a good idea to try to convince me to be on her side (and not my mother's side). There were rumors that she had adopted me (no doubt she started them) and she wanted me not to go to school. At that point I as glad I had lived with my mom as the play she played was way too obvious to me. It hurt to see what she was doing, and it hurt even more when she realized that I wouldn't take her side.
About the black stuff... I remember talking with my sis, and she said at the time that I must have watched a horror movie or something. I do think that it is a valid point. My sub conscious made my aunt the bad guy and took something scary that I had saw to make its point.
Let me just say that it was not fun being in a car with her, while she was yelling, being furious with me and driving.
My first dream
My first dream that I really could remember that had an influence on me is the subject on this post. When I saw it I have been really young, maybe 3 or 4. And I still do remember the dream.
I remember that in the dream we were living in a house (not in the farm with grandparents), just our family of four (at that age I was not aware of that I had a brother, or maybe I was but didn't really understand it). It was a nice house, bedrooms upstairs, kitchen and living room downstairs. This very old clock near a door. Then one day a fire started in the house. I was in the living room with my sister. My mom was in the kitchen and dad was out working or something. Then suddenly there was flames everywhere and my mom comes and crabs my sister and runs out. When she is running out I yell her to save me too. She turns and closes the door and leaves me behind trapped in the burning building.
I am there just watching the flames eat up the place and watch the time go by from the big clock. I am yelling and I am scared. I have no idea on how to get out and the fire is getting worse and worse (I do not feel the heat, probably because at the time I don't know what the flames feel like). Then suddenly the door opens up and my dad rushes in and takes me to the safety.
Now some of you know what the relationship between me and my family is. Somehow I have known from the very young that there is no way I can trust my mom. Now don't get me wrong, I have trusted her and done what she says, but now as adult this dream speaks loud and clear. I remember telling this dream when I was young and talking about it later as well. Usually people didn't even listen to me, as I was so young. Just another nightmare they'd say. Well it is a dream I admit that. I believe I must have heard them fight or something and she probably has ran out and he was left behind. Then at one point he probably came in to check that we were sleeping.
I remember that in the dream we were living in a house (not in the farm with grandparents), just our family of four (at that age I was not aware of that I had a brother, or maybe I was but didn't really understand it). It was a nice house, bedrooms upstairs, kitchen and living room downstairs. This very old clock near a door. Then one day a fire started in the house. I was in the living room with my sister. My mom was in the kitchen and dad was out working or something. Then suddenly there was flames everywhere and my mom comes and crabs my sister and runs out. When she is running out I yell her to save me too. She turns and closes the door and leaves me behind trapped in the burning building.
I am there just watching the flames eat up the place and watch the time go by from the big clock. I am yelling and I am scared. I have no idea on how to get out and the fire is getting worse and worse (I do not feel the heat, probably because at the time I don't know what the flames feel like). Then suddenly the door opens up and my dad rushes in and takes me to the safety.
Now some of you know what the relationship between me and my family is. Somehow I have known from the very young that there is no way I can trust my mom. Now don't get me wrong, I have trusted her and done what she says, but now as adult this dream speaks loud and clear. I remember telling this dream when I was young and talking about it later as well. Usually people didn't even listen to me, as I was so young. Just another nightmare they'd say. Well it is a dream I admit that. I believe I must have heard them fight or something and she probably has ran out and he was left behind. Then at one point he probably came in to check that we were sleeping.
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
My nights
Like I wrote yesterday, I have been having some trouble sleeping. Now last night was no different. It was pretty normal to me I would say. So at one point (for reasons I am not going to talk about here) I started to think what I would write here. One topic has been on my mind for quite some time, but I just haven't been able to start writing about it. So last night when nothing else seemed to help, I decided to organize my idea about dreams.
I have decided to write few posts about it. Now I know what normal dreams are, but that's not what I am going to write about. These dreams are a mix of reality, future and something bad. Now if someone says that you can't dream about future, they are wrong. Hello!! Its called dreaming... You can do anything you want in dreams. I have dreamed about future about what it would be like to be grown up (I was a child at that time), what would a new job be like, what kind of a first day of school would I have... etc. You know the normal stuff. (Hadn't planned quite putting this here already, but I think it is best that I state that now.)
For reason again not explained here, I have had periods where I have not seen dreams. But like one of my teachers once said, Everybody dreams. We just don't remember them. I would like to believe that my subconscious has decided for me not to remember. I remember that I have gone to bed closed my eyes and then opened them, to see that it is morning. Nothing in between. Felt like a split of a second and I slept 8-9 hours. That was normal to me too. Well it didn't used to be normal, but I just figured that it was part of growing up.
When I was a child (not in school) I used to have very vivid dreams and a vivid imagination. One might say that one never looses imagination. I would say they are wrong. Well not totally wrong, but wrong still.
So this is what had been on my mind last night, and I was hell set to write about this (during the night). When I woke up, I decided to write something else. (Come on, dreams... Who likes to hear about them?) Also I know that this blog doesn't have that many readers, so it's okey for me to write almost anything here. Few of my relatives has a link here, but usually if I haven't written in few months they forget about this. Still they might remember and come check this out. So you see my dilemma.
Well today after reading my friends blog, it all makes sense now. I have to write about this. In a way I hope it will help her (see the light as I found the batteries). It still feels amazing how she wrote something that I have just been thinking (well not literally, because that would have been either awesome or totally creepy). Not telling what blog I mean as it none of your business. But let me just say I was happy working at home so no one saw my reaction.
Now I think I have written enough for this entry. I might write more later. This is kind of introduction to the subject. Next will be the first, then the middle and last will be about last xmas. I might delete or hide these posts later. But now I'll post this... I promise...
I have decided to write few posts about it. Now I know what normal dreams are, but that's not what I am going to write about. These dreams are a mix of reality, future and something bad. Now if someone says that you can't dream about future, they are wrong. Hello!! Its called dreaming... You can do anything you want in dreams. I have dreamed about future about what it would be like to be grown up (I was a child at that time), what would a new job be like, what kind of a first day of school would I have... etc. You know the normal stuff. (Hadn't planned quite putting this here already, but I think it is best that I state that now.)
For reason again not explained here, I have had periods where I have not seen dreams. But like one of my teachers once said, Everybody dreams. We just don't remember them. I would like to believe that my subconscious has decided for me not to remember. I remember that I have gone to bed closed my eyes and then opened them, to see that it is morning. Nothing in between. Felt like a split of a second and I slept 8-9 hours. That was normal to me too. Well it didn't used to be normal, but I just figured that it was part of growing up.
When I was a child (not in school) I used to have very vivid dreams and a vivid imagination. One might say that one never looses imagination. I would say they are wrong. Well not totally wrong, but wrong still.
So this is what had been on my mind last night, and I was hell set to write about this (during the night). When I woke up, I decided to write something else. (Come on, dreams... Who likes to hear about them?) Also I know that this blog doesn't have that many readers, so it's okey for me to write almost anything here. Few of my relatives has a link here, but usually if I haven't written in few months they forget about this. Still they might remember and come check this out. So you see my dilemma.
Well today after reading my friends blog, it all makes sense now. I have to write about this. In a way I hope it will help her (see the light as I found the batteries). It still feels amazing how she wrote something that I have just been thinking (well not literally, because that would have been either awesome or totally creepy). Not telling what blog I mean as it none of your business. But let me just say I was happy working at home so no one saw my reaction.
Now I think I have written enough for this entry. I might write more later. This is kind of introduction to the subject. Next will be the first, then the middle and last will be about last xmas. I might delete or hide these posts later. But now I'll post this... I promise...
Monday, February 07, 2011
@ work
I do support for living... So if the site says that we give support in English and Finnish, then why oh why do people send support requests in French, Dutch, German, Russian [Cyrillic!], etc!! Today alone I have had many requests like this. Some I understand (weird huh ;) ) but I still need to translate them into English before I can reply. If I am feeling really annoyed I reply back in English. Even though I know that they'll probably reply back with " I don't understand English!" in their native language. (Still most of them do.)
That has been my pet peeve(?) today.
I have been searching for tickets to London (Brighton) for Easter, as my friend has a b-day party there. It has not been easy, and it seems that I will need to go with extra landing on my way there. The outbound flight would be HEL-CPH-LHR, but inbound would be a direct flight back. Now I am not sure if I should take that or not. Unfortunately I do not have too much time to decided. I could take a direct flight with easyjet, but then I would need to pay almost 300 euros (with luggage), and that price is what I would get with Finnair normally. I need to check if SAS also takes money for the luggage's or not. If they do, than I fly with Finnair, and if not then I will take the cheapest one (aka W/ SAS Hel-Cph-Lhr).
So now I need to find a nice present for my friend. Also need to check other flights before or after Easter, if I am not able to make it to the bday party. (To which I would love to go to.)
On another note. This morning I drank an energy drink (felt a bit tired). So I have been fidgeting in front of my computer the whole day. (Lots of extra energy, but change to burn it.) Also now I am starting to feel tired again... It might be because lately I have gone to bed after 2 am. Sometimes I fall asleep around 5 am... I have tried to go to bed earlier, but that results me waking up in the middle of the night wide awake. Then falling asleep again after 5 am. I also made a promise to a friend that I will send few applications out to find a new job. The current one will be the end of me if I continue this too long.
You can clearly see that I have drank energy drink today. The post is jumping from one subject to another... Not really making any sense (it took me awhile to write this one too). But I thought that better to write something now, than write "oops, it's been a long time since last post" in next June.
That has been my pet peeve(?) today.
I have been searching for tickets to London (Brighton) for Easter, as my friend has a b-day party there. It has not been easy, and it seems that I will need to go with extra landing on my way there. The outbound flight would be HEL-CPH-LHR, but inbound would be a direct flight back. Now I am not sure if I should take that or not. Unfortunately I do not have too much time to decided. I could take a direct flight with easyjet, but then I would need to pay almost 300 euros (with luggage), and that price is what I would get with Finnair normally. I need to check if SAS also takes money for the luggage's or not. If they do, than I fly with Finnair, and if not then I will take the cheapest one (aka W/ SAS Hel-Cph-Lhr).
So now I need to find a nice present for my friend. Also need to check other flights before or after Easter, if I am not able to make it to the bday party. (To which I would love to go to.)
On another note. This morning I drank an energy drink (felt a bit tired). So I have been fidgeting in front of my computer the whole day. (Lots of extra energy, but change to burn it.) Also now I am starting to feel tired again... It might be because lately I have gone to bed after 2 am. Sometimes I fall asleep around 5 am... I have tried to go to bed earlier, but that results me waking up in the middle of the night wide awake. Then falling asleep again after 5 am. I also made a promise to a friend that I will send few applications out to find a new job. The current one will be the end of me if I continue this too long.
You can clearly see that I have drank energy drink today. The post is jumping from one subject to another... Not really making any sense (it took me awhile to write this one too). But I thought that better to write something now, than write "oops, it's been a long time since last post" in next June.
Friday, February 04, 2011
Blog texts
Usually I have a vague idea what to write. Kind of a mind map if you will. Today I have nothing. So I am sorry to say, but today this will be all you get. :P
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Book hunting
My sister has this habit of finding an interesting book series and not wanting it while it is hot. Then after a few years she says " I want to have it as a bday present" etc. So usually I am able to find the last books of the series quite easily or she has bought them already from local bookstore. The hunt begins when I can't find what I want from my usual online bookstore.
Now I know you'll be thinking why I just don't go to ebay and buy one there. As usually you can find almost anything from there. I would actually do so, unless my sister hadn't said that she would like the book to be in Finnish... So not so easy to find the books now.
Why I am writing about this now is because I was able to find this website where you can change something that you own to something that you want or then you can buy it. Well I found one of those books that I want from there. Now I have that book waiting for me in the post office :)) Oh, joy!
The other book is far more difficult. I haven't been able to find it online, so I need to look for it from these old bookstores... that sell old books. You know what I mean, right? The book itself is not that old. The edition that my sister wants was released in 2005. So no wonder no one wants to give the book up. I can find the book in paper pack version, but that is not the version that my sister wants. Oh, boy!
Now I know you'll be thinking why I just don't go to ebay and buy one there. As usually you can find almost anything from there. I would actually do so, unless my sister hadn't said that she would like the book to be in Finnish... So not so easy to find the books now.
Why I am writing about this now is because I was able to find this website where you can change something that you own to something that you want or then you can buy it. Well I found one of those books that I want from there. Now I have that book waiting for me in the post office :)) Oh, joy!
The other book is far more difficult. I haven't been able to find it online, so I need to look for it from these old bookstores... that sell old books. You know what I mean, right? The book itself is not that old. The edition that my sister wants was released in 2005. So no wonder no one wants to give the book up. I can find the book in paper pack version, but that is not the version that my sister wants. Oh, boy!
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
This winter
has been really strange. The snow came down early, it didn't melt away and we actually had cold weather in south as well. Usually the snow comes down around Xmas, it melts away and comes back, melts away and comes back aka it is not that cold in the south. I remember few years back we didn't have any snow in January, I also remember few black Christmases (in south). Up north where my sister lives there has been a white Christmas always.
No in February should be very very cold... Well it is not very cold. At the moment it is +2C. There is an old saying that says that the coldest time of the year is February. So we will see if the time has changed or will be get the really really cold weather here. Now I don't mind that it is not that cold as my car will use less gas the warmer it is. So the colder it gets the more it uses.
Usually I spent the Xmas with my sister (and her family), but this year I had decided to spent the time with my brother (and his family). Due to this decision my plans were a bit different. Instead of staying up north after my nephews Bday, I drove back home (sick) via granny's place. I have to say that the Xmas was not what we had planned. My brothers home burned down (they lost 90% of their belongings) a week before Xmas. They had luck, as they hadn't been able to sell their old place. So after spending few nights in a hotel, they were given a permission to move back to their old home.
Most of my sister-in-laws friends gave them furniture and clothes (toys for children). I didn't have that much extra stuff (still have one empty room and missing other stuff as well) so I didn't give them that much. When my sister-in-law said that they wouldn't have a Christmas this year, I said not to worry about it. So I made it my mission to make them have as normal Christmas as I knew. (My Xmasses has never been too normal, expect when I was little girl... Well does it count if we had two Santa's?) So I baked some Christmas pastries and took the bakeings that I had made with my granny. Christmas Eve my brother et al left to eat with friends and I came to open up the (fake) tree and decorate it. It took a bit longer than I had hoped for, but I managed to do so before they got home. Then I pretended that I had just arrived before them :))
They still haven't been able to move back (and won't be any time soon), but the normal life is almost up to speed. If anyone of you have had similar experience then you know that even though the life seems normal, what is inside your head is not. It takes time to recover.
So as I said, this winter has not been normal.
No in February should be very very cold... Well it is not very cold. At the moment it is +2C. There is an old saying that says that the coldest time of the year is February. So we will see if the time has changed or will be get the really really cold weather here. Now I don't mind that it is not that cold as my car will use less gas the warmer it is. So the colder it gets the more it uses.
Usually I spent the Xmas with my sister (and her family), but this year I had decided to spent the time with my brother (and his family). Due to this decision my plans were a bit different. Instead of staying up north after my nephews Bday, I drove back home (sick) via granny's place. I have to say that the Xmas was not what we had planned. My brothers home burned down (they lost 90% of their belongings) a week before Xmas. They had luck, as they hadn't been able to sell their old place. So after spending few nights in a hotel, they were given a permission to move back to their old home.
Most of my sister-in-laws friends gave them furniture and clothes (toys for children). I didn't have that much extra stuff (still have one empty room and missing other stuff as well) so I didn't give them that much. When my sister-in-law said that they wouldn't have a Christmas this year, I said not to worry about it. So I made it my mission to make them have as normal Christmas as I knew. (My Xmasses has never been too normal, expect when I was little girl... Well does it count if we had two Santa's?) So I baked some Christmas pastries and took the bakeings that I had made with my granny. Christmas Eve my brother et al left to eat with friends and I came to open up the (fake) tree and decorate it. It took a bit longer than I had hoped for, but I managed to do so before they got home. Then I pretended that I had just arrived before them :))
They still haven't been able to move back (and won't be any time soon), but the normal life is almost up to speed. If anyone of you have had similar experience then you know that even though the life seems normal, what is inside your head is not. It takes time to recover.
So as I said, this winter has not been normal.
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
I have been cooking
I say cooking when its something salty and baking when its something sweet.
So the other day I decided to try to do the traditional Karelian pastries. The problem with that is, that most people who gave me hints, were not referring to the traditional Karelian pastries but to rice pastries. Believe you me, there is a huge difference. The name is protected and you can't call anything else but the real thing Karelian. The other stuff is rice, potato, carrot, etc. pastry.
Also I think I need to mention, that I actually have done these before with BOTH of my grandmothers. So I know how to do them, but it just has been a long, long, long time since I have done them. I think I was a small child back when was the last time we did huge amount of Karelian pastries. You ONLY use rye flour when doing the skins. I heard that my friends had problems with that, as it was sticky. Well I didn't have that problem :P
I might say, that I had a secret weapon. I actually am Karelian and have done these before. So it probably was from my backbone that I knew what to do. I did follow instructions, as I didn't remember everything. I promise next time I am doing them I will post pic so you will know what I am talking about. So far doing the skins is the best thing for me. Putting the porridge in is not that bad either, but if it is too hot you can burn your fingers.
Anyways just thought that I need to share this with you. I will accept ideas on what to cook/bake next.
So the other day I decided to try to do the traditional Karelian pastries. The problem with that is, that most people who gave me hints, were not referring to the traditional Karelian pastries but to rice pastries. Believe you me, there is a huge difference. The name is protected and you can't call anything else but the real thing Karelian. The other stuff is rice, potato, carrot, etc. pastry.
Also I think I need to mention, that I actually have done these before with BOTH of my grandmothers. So I know how to do them, but it just has been a long, long, long time since I have done them. I think I was a small child back when was the last time we did huge amount of Karelian pastries. You ONLY use rye flour when doing the skins. I heard that my friends had problems with that, as it was sticky. Well I didn't have that problem :P
I might say, that I had a secret weapon. I actually am Karelian and have done these before. So it probably was from my backbone that I knew what to do. I did follow instructions, as I didn't remember everything. I promise next time I am doing them I will post pic so you will know what I am talking about. So far doing the skins is the best thing for me. Putting the porridge in is not that bad either, but if it is too hot you can burn your fingers.
Anyways just thought that I need to share this with you. I will accept ideas on what to cook/bake next.
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