Up's and down's

So I've been really busy lately. I admit that once I got the news that my Joint did not go through, I got a bit depressed and did not do anything for a while. I kind of dropped the ball. I had all good excuses like I am moving to another country and I need pack and sell all my stuff. Well, now I have been back here for a month. I have tried to help around the house all I can, but I can see that being here is stressful for my sister and me. We were not created to live together. 

I would love to find my own apartment, but in those places where I would like to live, the prices are too high. I have considered buying my own place, but I don't have enough savings yet to be viable option. So I am stuck here. My sister also knows it. So life it full of up's and down's. I have been trying to apply for another job (since my last month just started) but so far I have not found anything. I have just received email's saying thank you but no thank you. I did receive an email saying that I was chosen to be considered for an internship, but that does not mean anything. The people who choose me to be considered are different people from those who do the actual choosing. So I have to wait.

If I would get the internship, it would mean that I move to US for six months starting next September. I would so love to get that! Only problem is that it does not pay well. So I might have to use my savings to live there and that would postpone my move back to Canada a bit. I rather would not postpone that as currently I am in the prime of my life (work wise). If I wait too long, my chances get lower and lower. 

So now I am waiting for news if I have passed the Joint or not. I am trying to get motivation to write my thesis, but it is really hard. If the Joint is not passed, I think I might quit the school. I do not have any more energy for it. Also I do not see any benefits from the school. Finland is over educated anyway. Too much everything going on at the moment.

Edit: I just received an email (4.4) that says that the internship place that I was talking about earlier has made a mistake. Well the organization accidentally sent the acceptance email to all participants... So it is highly likely that I might not get it. Like I said; up's and down's.